Friday, September 07, 2012

Emerging from the Dark

That was a long cold dark journey but like the lotus flower I am rising up out of the deep mud and opening into the light. To put it mildly, life knocked the stuffing out of me. What with book deals falling apart (my NY editor was fired and the Canadians were too fearful to go it alone) and a major film deal cancelled (the producer's accountant robbed him blind) I found myself, like Dante, wandering through a dark wood more than half-way through my life. And then, worst of all, my dearest friend in Toronto, whose house is the setting for Dana's home in The Book of Dreams, died suddenly just two weeks after I visited her for her 70th birthday. (She actually appears as a character in my new adult work People of the Great Journey which is being read at the moment by several publishers. We didn't take up the one offer to date as it was ebook only). So 2011 was the Year of Hell and it spilled well into 2012. My heart was broken. I couldn't write. Now I have done a Leonard Cohen. I am working and living in a Buddhist Centre in the heart of the Irish countryside and loving every minute of it. Will be off to India in December to attend the teachings of the Dalai Lama and then Mongolia next year. I'm not writing at the moment but I am taking notes. The darkest hour is just before the dawn.

8 comments:

abaronewrites said...

Oh no! I'm so sorry to hear about everything falling apart on you. I can only imagine how heartbroken you are about losing your book deal, movie deal and your dear friend in such a short span of time. My thoughts are with you and my fingers are crossed that everything will work out in the end.

OR Melling said...

Ah thanks, that's very sweet of you. This is the month my dear friend was born and the month she died. Just last week I attended a year anniversary wake in her honour. It was wonderful to talk and laugh and cry about her again. As for writing, it has taken a back seat for the moment, but there have been some interesting nibbles on the adult novel, so watch this space.

Auntie sezzzzzz... said...

Dear One, I have just found your books and so also, have just found your blog. I am so sorry that life has been handing you many trials. So sorry.

But this post sounds as if you are taking things in hand... Well, starting to do so. Best wishes with continuing to find your path again.

Gentle hugs,
"Auntie"
Upper NE of USA

OR Melling said...

Thank you. What a kind comment. Suffering is, of course, an inevitable part of life as the Buddhists say, but some times it just goes on too long! Right now all is well and I am enjoying myself thoroughly. More anon.

paddy said...

I haven't checked your blog for a while, and I'm very sorry to hear about all that. Sounds like a terrible year. Life's really been throwing it at you. But I'm happy that you've found somewhere to recharge. Keep us informed of how it's going!

OR Melling said...

Tx Paddy. I've still got your email in my inbox & intend to reply! Slowly but surely, I'm catching up with long overdue correspondence. I had an utter aversion to the computer and anything to do with writing whatsoever. Still thrilled to be out of the publishing industry for now - it eats its young - and not to have anything to do with writing. Will be popping over to your blog shortly.

Anonymous said...

I prayed for you today! May the peace of God fill your heart and mind through our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

ZDENNY

OR Melling said...

Thank you ZDenny. That's very sweet of you.:)